Day one of this

This was just a random idea I had: to try daily in the days leading up to our wedding for me to write down my thoughts about you, and us. What's weighing on my mind. Maybe one day I'll show you this stuff. Maybe I won't. But I still need to put this stuff to written words. I don't really know the format I'm going for this, but let's give it a shot...

I love what we have. It may be cliché, but it is indeed hands down the best thing to ever happen to me. I still have quite figured out what I did to deserve you. But I have you and I'm never letting go. The way you accept me for who I am. The way you show you care. The interest you've taken in helping and making sure I continue to make myself a better person. The care you show when something is wrong. It makes my heart flutter every time you show you care.

I'm still having my breath taken away every time I see you look at me with that beautiful smile I love so much. I do miss looking over my should and catching you looking up at me with those big, beautiful brown eyes with a facial expression that says you're so happy to be there next to me. So full of love. I longed for so long to have someone look at me that way. I never that I'd find it. They say God's timing is perfect. So I guess we found each other when we were supposed to.

I miss you so much. I'm still 35 days from holding you in my arms again, and the wait is so painful. But even with how painful it is to be so far away, it's makes it easier to deal with because I can video call you and see you and hear you voice every day, even at 1200 miles. 

Well, I don't know what much else to say for now. I just love you so much. And there is nobody but you who I want to spend the rest of my life with.

503 days to go until "I do."